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Friday, February 26, 2016

Month One





Naughty Baby. . . :)
Nicknames:
Sissy, Care, Care Bear, Clareece, Claireeeey, Clairey Merry

Weight: 

 9 lbs - 4oz 

Length:  
23 inches 

(Measurements taken at her two week appointment, i'm sure she has grown in the past two weeks.)


Diaper Size: 
Just went up to size one after some exciting blowouts! 


Clothes Size: 
0-3 months 
We got some good use out of our newborn outfits for the first couple weeks, I was so sad when I had to fold them up and put them away. 3 month clothes are usually too baggy but we are finding that Claire's got some long limbs and everything seems to be too short on her! She is a big girl and is growing so fast.

Health: 

We feel so blessed that Claire has been healthy and strong. I have to admit I have been a little paranoid with the cold weather and with it being RSV season. I've turned into the crazy "have you washed your hands?" type. Oh well. I can't imagine how miserable and sad it would be for both of us if she did get sick. At her two week appointment a few weeks ago she had to get the routine heel prick and the nurse kept commenting on how strong Claire is. She said that she has done more than a thousand tests and she thought Claire was one of the strongest babies she had ever seen! Claire holds her head up like a champ and has from the very beginning. We have to be really careful when we stand up because she has a tendency to whip it around. 
Sleep: 
This has definitely been our biggest struggle and is still a work in progress. The first two weeks she completely had her days and nights backwards. We would put her down about 11:00pm and she literally wouldn't fall into a deep sleep until 6:00am but then we would both sleep until 2:00pm. I have been so used to getting up at 5:30- 6:00 in the morning the past few years to teach piano so this was making me totally crazy! As the weeks go on things are progressively getting a little better. I think the longest stretch we've had has been about 4 hours and this has maybe happened 3 times total. The problem is she really doesn't love sleeping in her bassinet or on her back in general and I am too paranoid to have her sleep in her carseat (which she loves) or her Mamaroo Swing (which she also loves) or on her stomach (which she loves) because of all the scary stories you hear. So for now we will just continue to try to get on a schedule and get used to the bassinet. She loves sleeping in our bed with us but I usually don't let her do this either until its morning and Brady is up and getting ready for work. I have a feeling it won't be long before we move her into her own crib.

Diet:  
Right now Claire is exclusively breastfeeding and eating like a champ! She has never tried anything different and has never taken a bottle... yet! It is my goal that sometime in the next week or so to try pumping and getting little Claire to take a bottle from Brady. She is and always has been so good at latching and overall is just a great little eater. She typically goes 2.5 - 3 hours during the day and if we are lucky we sometimes get a little bit longer of a stretch at night. The first two weeks she was "cluster feeding" from 11:00 at night until about 2:00 am. Luckily I think we have that under control! 

Likes:

Claire loves to be held. They say you can't spoil a newborn and I hope this is true because this sweet little lady gets held all day. She's got us wrapped around her finger and has two sets of grandparents and many aunts and uncles that all live within a mile just can't get enough of her.




Claire surprisingly loves taking showers especially when the warm water runs on her head. She wasn't so much a fan on the bath- maybe we will have to try again!



(First Bath)

Claire loves getting her hair brushed or played with, it is the one thing that always helps calm her down. She also likes to have a soft blanket near her face or up against her cheek. 
Claire loves her carseat which is such a blessing. It is actually pretty hilarious- if ever she is sad Brady will just tell everyone around us, "watch this!" He will buckle her into her carseat, put her blankets on her, put her binky in, close the carseat cover, pick up the carriage and within 10 seconds like clockwork... silence! 



Claire loves to be stimulated and many have made the comment that she is very alert for a baby of her age. She keeps us all entertained with her many different facial expressions. She loves to look at lights, colors and patterns! One of her favorite things is when her dad holds her, he will dance around with her singing her "my girl!" She loves the bouncing movements. She also loves to be on the go in her stroller or in the car. She is a little angel when we are out and about and for that we are so thankful!




Claire loves her MAM pacifier and has since we first were in the hospital. Brady hates it though because the only MAM one we own is blue and it often gets her mistaken for a boy. This was especially true while we were in the hospital so now Brady is always the first one to find her a bow before we leave the house. 




Dislikes:
Claire's greatest dislikes at this point in her little life is sleeping when she is supposed to. This has left her dad and I quite sleepy but we have been soaking up every second we can get with her asleep or awake, day or night! 

Claire also really doesn't like to be naked or cold so diaper changes and changing clothes are often a struggle. We typically try to catch her in a "milk drunk" state before undergoing these type of activities. 

Claire has really taken to a pacifier but it immediately turns into her worst enemy the second she is hungry and wanting the "real thing." We have been quite impressed with how far she can spit it out when its not giving her what she wants. 

Things I don't want to forget:

Doctor's Appointment: 
We had a funny experience at her two week checkup appointment where I felt like a total disaster as a mom. First of all I never would have made it to the doctors if it weren't for my dear mother. She has been the best help to me! So, the nurse came in and asked me to undress her down to just a clean diaper. Right before the doctor came in we heard a big rumble in her pants so I jumped up and tried to get a clean diaper on her before the doctor came in. She was already screaming because she was naked and cold. As I was sitting there hurrying to clean her up the doctor walked in and started talking with me as usual, mind you this whole discussion was over some pretty intense screams. It didn't seem to phase him which I was so thankful for but right when I thought I couldn't possibly seem more dysfunctional she peed all over the table. Good thing my doctor is a great guy- I felt like such a newbe! 

 

Frantic Eating:
One thing that Claire does that I secretly love and never want to forget is this frantic and vicious head shake when she is hungry and can't find what she wants. We always joke that she must be ravenous! It is hilarious and poor girl I usually try to get her want she wants as quick as I can but sometimes when she goes ape on her binky we can't help but laugh. 

 

Overwhelming Love:
I had an experience the morning after we brought her home from the hospital after Brady had gone back to work and I was laying in bed next with her right beside me. I was overcome with the most overwhelming feeling of love I had ever experienced in my life. I broke down in tears thinking of how blessed Brady and I are to have been given this most precious and perfect baby to be part of our family.This feeling of love was also coupled with overwhelming worry and doubt as I started to question how I would ever be able to give her all the things she deserves in this world. In this brief moment in time I think I felt every emotion possible- joy, gratitude, worry, fear, anxiety and awe- it was truly a moment I will never forget. Maybe we can chalk in all up to postpartum hormones but I truly believe it was the gravity of the amazing miracle we had just witnessed finally sinking in. The love a mother can have for her child is real, tangible and something I know I will never not know again.


Brady Daddy: 
One of my favorite things about this whole experience has been watching Brady become a dad. He has transitioned into this new role with ease. He constantly looks at Claire and just says, "oooh she's so cute!" His love for her has been instant and it is so fun to watch. I always joke that I always try to calm Claire to soothe her while he stimulates her. He always dances or sings to her. One time I had to run to the neighbors and I came home to find that Brady had set up a whole Christmas themed photoshoot of Claire. He had put her in a Christmas stocking set up a back drop and even found Christmas props. I know this is only the beginning of the fun it will be to watch Brady interact with our kids. 

(Came home from running errands to find Brady conducting a photo shoot!) 

Meeting Grandma Merrilee: 
When Claire was two weeks old we took her out to the assisted living center to meet her namesake, my grandma Merrilee. Grandma Merrilee is my mom's mom and has always been a very important person in my life. About 15 years ago, when she was in her mid 50's she was diagnosed with a form of Alzheimer's Disease. Since then she has slowly gone downhill. Recently, she has really taken a turn for the worse. It was always my greatest wish for Claire to meet her. I am so glad she did. Our greatest hope is that one day she will be even half the woman whose name she carries. Even though the photos didn't turn out very good, they are some I will cherish forever. 

      


We love this little cutie and can't wait to watch her continue to learn and grow! 
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Newborn Photos





Big thanks to the amazing Ashley Swenson Photography for taking these photos! 























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Claire Merrilee's Birth Story

It was the morning of Friday - October 30th, 2015. I was five days over my due date of October 25th and had kind of given up hope that I would actually go into labor on my own. I had an induction scheduled for Monday November 2nd, 2015 and I had come to terms with that being the date our baby would finally arrive. I finished working at Vivint at the end of September and finished teaching piano right before UEA on October 16 so I was bored to tears waiting for little Claire to come. In the couple weeks I had to prepare,  I was able to get her nursery ready, walk over 30 miles with my mom, clean every corner of my house and then just continued to wait. My 38 week appointment showed that I was 2cm dilated and 70% effaced. By my 39 week appointment I was 3cm dilated and 80% effaced. My doctor showed confidence that I could go into labor on my own and I was hopeful too. At 39 weeks I started trying everything I could to help my body on its way.

  • Evening Primrose Oil
  • Walking Stairs
  • Pineapple Juice
  • Briskly Walking
  • Blue Cohosh
  • Rasberry Tea Leaves
  • Clary Sage
  • Practically everything but castor oil

Nothing seemed to be working so I just accepted it and tried to stay sane!


The morning of October 30th I woke up early to go to my brothers Halloween parade at school. I met my mom and the two of us went to the parade together. After the parade  had plans to go on a walk later that day so I went home to change. While home, I used the bathroom and when I stood up I experienced a large gush of water. Could it be my water breaking? I have to admit I got a bit excited but wanted to be careful not to overreact. I debated whether or not I should call Brady but after seeing the amount of fluid figured it had to mean something significant.



I called Brady and told him I though my water might have broken and he a sounded a little panicked and told me he would be home from work to pick me up in 30 mins. I called the nurse to let them know what had happened and they continued to encourage me to come in to the hospital. I text my mom and calmly started to get a bag together for the hospital. Of course I had waited until last minute! I had set a few things aside before hand and just had to get them in a bag. After a while Brady got home to pick me and up. We took a brief moment for Brady to give me a blessing and say a quick prayer. I was so thankful we had the time to do this, it helped calm both of our nerves. We set off for the hospital and I have to admit I was in a bit of disbelief! Brady and I kept looking at each other and saying this is it! This is it!

Once we got to the hospital we went straight to Labor and Delivery where they took our names and got a room set up for us. Up until this point I had been bound and determined to have a natural/ unmedicated birth. I had prepared myself for months for this type of birth and was really hoping to be able to pull it off. I had chosen this because of my history with scoliosis. I had heard that sometimes people with scoliosis have a hard time taking an epidural as sometimes it fails to work or is difficult to get it. I figured I wanted to try to get Claire here without an epidural if I could.






Here's a little chronology of events that happened that day. . . 

Friday - October 30, 2016
  • 10:50am- Felt an unusual gush while at home. 
  • 12:00pm- Arrived at the hospital, ran tests, concluded it was not amniotic fluid and that my water had NOT broken. Bummed because I thought I had started to labor on my own, making a natural birth much harder. 
  • 1:30- Hospital agreed to admit me regardless seeing that I was 6 days overdue. I hadn't had anything to eat the entire day so Brady ran and got me lunch because I was starving. 
  • 2:30pm- Started Pitocin 
  • 4:30pm- Doctor broke my water 
  • 5:30pm- Dilated to a 4 
  • 6:00pm- Consistent and increasingly painful contractions begin. 
  • 8:30pm- Began laboring on birthing ball
  • 10:00- Still a 4. (Que breakdown!) 
  • 10:30pm- Finally broke and decided to get an epidural

Saturday - October 31, 2016 
  • 12:00am- Watched the clock strike midnight and realized I would more than likely be having a Halloween baby! 
  • 12:30am- Dilated to a 5 
  • 2:00am- Dilated to a 6- baby had turned posterior or head up
  • 3:45am- Still at a 6 (put me on oxygen) 
  • 4:00am- Expressed concern over her heart rate being to "flat" and told me they would give me one more hour to progress or we would have to start discussing c-section. 
  • 4:30am- No sign of improvement 
  • 5:00am- Nurses expressed they were a little more hopeful and optimistic about her heart rate then they had been an hour before. Allowed me to keep going. Dilated to a 7.
  • 5:30am- Asked for epidural to be topped off because I was starting to be able to feel random spots in my butt! 
  • 6:00am- Still dilated to a 7. Heart rate starting to become more concerning. 
  • 7:00am- Doctor came in. Checked me and said that rather the a 7 like we had thought I was at that he suspected I was only about a 5. Decided to prepare me for c-section. 
  • 8:04am- Claire Merrilee was born! 



After Claire was born Brady got to go over and help them wash and measure her. I remember the doctor saying, "She's a big girl," and "look at all that hair!" They continued to work on me for about 30 more minutes but as quickly as possible, Brady brought Claire over and laid her next to my face. I got to see my little baby for the very first time. It was a very surreal moment. 

After surgery they wheeled us back to our room and allowed us to be alone with our little girl. This was the one thing I was worried about when I realized I would be having a c-section. I didn't want to be robbed of that special one-on-one bonding time. I got to do skin to skin with Claire and feed her for the first time. Brady sat right next to us and we got to be a family of 3! Brady took lots of pictures and kept our families in the loop. It was a very special moment as a couple and as a new family. 

After about an hour we went upstairs and met our families who were anxiously waiting for us! 

 















  

 



 


I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little bit disappointed to have had to get a c-section. I had never planned on that. I was really hoping to have that "empowering" birth experience that so many women talk about. I soon realized that regardless or how she got her, Claire had arrived safe and healthy. That was something to be grateful for. Now I look back and I guess I am kind of lucky because I got to experience natural birth, the relief of an epidural and a c-section so now I know how all three feel!Claire had so many visitors and people that love her! Though it didn't go like I had planned, it was a great experience meeting our little gal! 

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